I consider myself an outsider and an exotic person who has always somehow managed to get through life. I've had very little success socially and in my career and have always struggled with life and its challenges. The biggest one has always been love. I am deep and ponder the meaning of everything all day long. In addition, life has always been a burden for me.
I try to be as constructive and helpful to others as I can, because I believe that every life in this world is fighting an uphill battle and therefore deserves to be treated well. I also believe that all living beings only do, think, feel, are and experience what they are meant to by the universe. I do not believe in free will.
Therefore, I also don't believe that it is worthwhile to become particularly active for anything or to achieve something. Actually, my only will is that my existence is over as quickly as possible. Unfortunately, I believe in reincarnation and an eternal soul. Therefore, this wish can never be fulfilled.
Basically, I think that I came into the world as a loser and only had this task here. Just like some animals only come into the world to serve as food for others.